Archive for December, 2008

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Home

December 23, 2008

So I am home from school now!  I find myself occupying my time with way more sleep than I need, embroidery, video games, and chatting on AIM.  Plus some animation.  I started an animation project, and it’s an ambitious one.  Ahaha.

My multiple Christmasses have started.  The collection of items from the first haul is remarkably bizarre and hilarious.  A Wii, a $50 gift card to Victoria Secret (I’m not sure what my dad was thinking, but at least I can get…PJs and lotion), and a bunch of World of Warcraft stuff because he and his girlfriend took her sons to BlizzCon in California recently.  Ahaha.  That stuff was actually kinda a joke gift, but at least the artwork is beautiful.  And it’s well-timed, since I may be applying there for an internship (Blizzard, I mean).

Anyway, I’m happy to be home.  I’m sure I’ll start missing being back at school even more than I am now in about a week or so, but it’s alright.  I get to see all my high school friends and family (and GRACE!), plus David and Finley are visiting in a few weeks.  So all is well.

Now, back to Xenosaga.  I curse David for ever making me want to completion beat this or ANY game.  And the other two games in the series.  This is going to take me FOREVER.

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Denouement

December 14, 2008

There’s something very comforting in a sense of closure.

I’m not sure if I ever elaborated on the end of the Prom date saga.  I ended up finding out at Prom that he wasn’t actually interested in dating me, which was one tremendous blow I didn’t really want to deal with while trying to have a nice after-Prom.  Anyway, extremely long, painfully awkward story short, I ended up baring my feelings to him a few weeks later and we talked about it.  He wasn’t looking for a relationship, and we resolved to remain friends, which I was really okay with.  I mean, I didn’t even burst into tears, and that’s a large step for me.

Anyway, so I’ve been texting with him this evening because I said I heard All Good Gifts on iTunes, which ended up coming around to the fact that I have three different versions of that song due to Prom date rewriting it to ask me to the dance.  And suddenly I get a text where he says he’s sorry that things didn’t work out between us.  I really didn’t expect it, but I was really touched.  I guess…I dunno, after everything it was nice to hear.  And I told him, just as honestly as I meant it, that I was okay with it, and the fact that we were still friends was the most important part.  And he agreed.

That’s really all I needed to hear.  It’s like a tying up a plotline in a story.  It’s nice to finally have a happy ending to this branch of my life.

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Hot Diggety Dog

December 12, 2008

My expertise isn’t due until Wednesday.  I love J Rob SO much right now.  I went to talk to him about what else I could cover in my paper and he gave me all kinds of ideas upon which I can elaborate or write!  Plus he extended the due date so I wouldn’t have to cram all my writing into one night.  I’m going to spread out the several things he mentioned over the remaining five days so I get it done without stressing.

I also designed myself a new Star Wars character.  God, I’m such a nerd.  Her name is Caerun and she’s Miralukan.  She’s a jedi, but she’s older and really doesn’t consider herself much a jedi anymore.  She also turned to the dark side once, which is why she no longer thinks she should be allowed to be a jedi.  I like her!  She’s grumpy.  She also probably knows Ren (my Twi’lek…or…Twi’ilek, I can’t remember), but I’m not sure yet.

That’s all for now.

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December 12, 2008

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Large Aspirations + Sexy + Sexy Guy -|- Overprotective Father x Pet BFF = Disney Princess

December 11, 2008

Well, I had to stay up late to do it, but I finished both my speech and my final in time for Oral Communication today.  And now I am finished with the class forever!  No more speeches, no more 8 o’ clock classes.  …In which one does speeches.  I still have Drawing.  But that’s beside the point.  My speech went relatively well–I’m not sure I made the time requirement, and while I was reading off of my notecards I completely botched a sentence and had to start it over…fortunately I earned humor points when I pointed how how badly I messed it up.  The two last speeches, though, were priceless.  I couldn’t have topped them if I had tried.  Two guys arguing about which Disney princess is best?  A jazzy blues song with a saxophone solo, performed live?  Come on now.  (That’s also where this entry’s title came from.  That would be the formula for creating an effective Disney Princess, as described by Ian.)

Now to nap for a while.  There will be work to do later.

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Weather

December 9, 2008

The weather is so disappointing.  All yesterday and the day before there had been talk of a horrendous storm; ice, sleet, four to eight inches of snow, everything students want and more.  And as much as I might not like cold weather or ice or snow when I have to be out in it, I certainly don’t mind it when it cancels classes.

So why is it that the worse the weather report gets the less likely it is to actually occur?  Sure, we got plenty of ice.   We even got a little bit of snow.  But certainly not enough to cancel classes.  That’s disappointing.  I would much rather stay home all day and work on my Oral Comm. final, which I started this morning instead of going to class to hear speeches (thank God for having three excused absences).

Oh well.  At least it’s not as dangerous out as was originally anticipated.  That’s a plus.

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Review: Portal (Game)

December 7, 2008

Okay, this is new.  I feel like writing today (REALLY?), so I’m going to start this section of my blog.  Game/movie reviews!  When I feel really strongly about something, I am usually motivated enough to write stuff about it, haha.  So here goes nothing.

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Title: Portal (The Orange Box)

Platform: Xbox 360

Summary: Use a highly advanced portal gun to propel, throw, drop, and otherwise pass yourself through a barrage of Aperture Science Enrichment Activities while accompanied by the omniscent GLaDos, the loveable Weighted Companion Cube, and the sneaking suspicion that the cake is a lie.

My Opinion: Alright, I had been hearing about Portal for quite some time now.  For whatever reason, it seemed to have taken the world by storm.  I tried the flash game of it, but I was perplexed as to how everyone could be obsessed with a little 2D flash game where you created holes in walls and jumped through them.  This is probably because I figured the real game was identical to this Flash creation.  On top of that, everyone continuously babbled about some kind of “cake” and how it was a “lie”.  I heard the song from the end of the game, and, while it was delightful and quirky, I had no idea what any of it meant.  Who was this strange computer?  Why was this game so popular?  WAS the cake a lie?

Fortunately, I have a friend who offered to lend me any of his 360 games (as I only have Soul Calibur IV…and I only have one controller).  I saw The Orange Box and was like, “YES”.  Let’s figure out what the heck is going on here.  Boy, am I ever GLaD I did that (…God, that was AWFUL).

The game is some crazy combination of a puzzle game and a platformer.  You have to use all kinds of strategy to launch yourself onto distant platforms, drop weighted cubes onto little robots, avoid stepping in some kind of mysterious liquid in the bottom of a room, and redirect weird little explosive balls of light into the appropriate receptors.  And on top of that, while you accomplish all this, the bizarrely melodic and instructive voice of GLaDos follows you through each room with little pick-me-ups such as promises of a party and cake, or warnings that Aperture Science apologizes for having you go through a military gauntlet instead of a normal testing facility.  By the end, the delightful irony of the computer’s extremely calm and yet somewhat psychotic voice contrasting with her less-than-comforting words is enough to keep you entertained for the entire final level.  The final boss fight is the most wonderful battle I’ve ever encountered.  I’ve actually beaten it twice in order to enjoy the hilarious dialogue over and over again.

From an artistic standpoint, the game is beautiful.  The surfaces are brilliantly done, and while your character’s movements are strange when you catch sight of yourself in a portal, it really doesn’t detract from the rest of the game.  The contrast between the portals and the stark white interior of the levels is brilliant, and the little details of the game managed to keep me amazed throughout the whole game.  Some of my favorite things, however, are the hidden things.  Behind extended panels you can see broken equipment, horrific writing scratched into walls, chain link fences, scattered pieces of paper, and messages in suspicious red writing.  When you later escape INTO this world behind the scenes, the mechanics of the building are SO well done, and the little messages are everywhere, instructing you on where to go and generally unnerving the player.  It’s honestly one of the best games I’ve seen in this respect.  It manages to freak you out subtlely throughout the game, increasing in eerieness as you continue to play.

Lastly, when you beat the game you unlock advanced puzzles and challenges for the levels, extending gameplay past the basic 4-ish hours you’ll spend on the main game.  And they are legitimately difficult.  I beat one and was completely incapable of being the next one.  And the main game is pretty tricky as it is–I found myself stuck more than once, having to use the most creative of solutions to make it through the level.  The advanced levels are this and more.

Overall, I can strongly recommend Portal to those who enjoy artistic details, a bit of horror, delightful irony, and solving crazy puzzles.  The controls are accessible, so it shouldn’t be an issue to learn how to play.  I do, however, recommend that you play it when you are able to have the sound up, as a good portion of the novelty of this game is in the dialogue that follows you throughout the game.  It also helps you advance to the next levels.

Just remember, though: the cake is a lie.

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Moving On

December 7, 2008

Now that that post is out of the way, I should say something about the happenings in my life as of late.  Admittedly, I have been motivated to keep this updated again due to Finley starting a blog (hi, Finley!).  But that’s neither here nor there, really.

Finals week is approaching fast (as I mentioned moments ago), which also means my first semester of college is nearing an end.  I feel I should reflect on this.

So far, I have learned a good deal of things.  More life lessons than anything.  For one, I need to put more effort into my art classes, specifically Drawing.  Never once did I expect to get a B in an art class, much less in my specialty.  Even though the class is easy for me, I have admittedly been slacking in class.  This must be resolved by next semester.  …Though I would really enjoy NOT having this teacher again.  Alas, I have no choice.  He is the only professor who does anything even remotely close to making maquettes, which is something I have been told I will need for my future career in the gaming industry and concept art.

Secondly, I have learned that drama isn’t worth the trouble.  It seems to me this lesson is taught to me each and every semester of each and every year of schooling in which I’ve participated, and yet I still can’t seem to get it mastered.  The beginning of this year was brutal.  Between rampant boy issues, Art History wiping the floor with me, feeling emo for ridiculous reasons, and getting sick to my stomach from either legitimately sincere heat issues or me being a psychopath, I was surprisingly beat down at the start of the semester.  Now that I’ve talked these things through with friends and family, and gotten over the boy, the emo, and the heat/psychosis, I’m feeling remarkably better.  In fact, I’ve come to the conclusion that college is monumentally wonderful.  Why couldn’t I just do this at the BEGINNING of the year?  Why must drama follow me everywhere?  It doesn’t.  I just keep thinking, “Oh, drama’s a nice person, perhaps I was wrong about it.  Perhaps hanging out with it again will show me that drama and I are on good terms.”  NO.  Not good terms.  Remarkably bad ones.

Don’t get my earlier statement wrong, I’ve learned lots within the curriculum of my classes, too.  For instance, I know a lot more about graphic design and composition now.  I also understand Adobe Flash, which is much easier to use than I thought.  Time consuming, but my point is made.  I also understand communication on a much more stable level.  Granted, I found the points in the book that had virtually nothing to do with the main class points much more interesting than the actual…main class points.  However, at least I’m learning things I can apply to my future goals.

I’m not particularly looking forward to finals.  I wasn’t kidding when I rattled off that list of what I have to do next week.  In Humanities, I have to finish more than half of my expertise paper on Alchemy.  Do you comprehend how difficult it is to write a paper on Alchemy?  Alchemy isn’t even real.  They believed they could create gold, make a stone that would prevent aging or cure all diseases.  On top of that, it’s so difficult to understand what anyone is talking about when it comes to the topic.  I had to milk all I could out of Paracelsus’ theories because I could actually understand some of what he was saying.  Basically, for my last 8 pages, I’m going to have to talk about how Alchemy appears in popular culture today.  I know a surprising amount about this.  Between Fullmetal Alchemist, Harry Potter, and Xenosaga, I think I can manage to make 15 pages.

After that, I have a speech to write for Oral Comm.  I’m not terribly worried about this speech, it’s a persuasive speech on a topic about which I’m very passionate; why the stage version of Phantom of the Opera is better than the movie.  The problem is simply going to be sitting down and writing out the outline.  To add to that, I also have to finish my take-home final for that class.  Take-home final?  YES.  As much as I usually dislike that teacher, I love her for that.  There’s also a minor assignment I have to finish for Tuesday, which will be the first of these assignments that I will finish.

After that, I have my Flash animation for 2D.  This is just WORK.  It’s not difficult by any means, it’s just time consuming.  I have most of the backgrounds drawn, and I intend to work on the moveable images this evening.  Animation will be next week, and that will just take time.  Honestly, I find working in Flash rather fun, so I’m not worried.  I just have to DO it.

Lastly, over the next weekend, I have to study for my Art History final and my Humanities final.  Art History, though a rather difficult class, is really not worrying me that much.  After my calculations, I discovered I can get a 50% on the final and still have a relatively high A in the class.  On top of that, I have a friend who will be taking the final before me, so I can get the scoop on it beforehand.  And the professor is totally okay with this, that’s the best part.  Humanities is also not going to be awful.  A 40-ish point scantron?  Multiple choice and true/false?  God, I love J Rob.

The very last thing I would like to finish sometime this week or next (to quote GLaDos, “that was a joke, haha, fat chance”) is Christmas gifts.  I have to draw something for at least four people.  Dang.  Well, I suppose that’s really only three, as I showed David his unfinished picture.  I can’t actually finish it until I buy some new blue Prismacolors (stupid Wailord).  The other three…I had MEANT to color them, but it’s looking like I won’t be able to do so unless I finish lineart for Christmas and postpone actual giving until they’re colored.  Also, I NEED a picture of the trio of destruction before I can even START Finley’s.  So.

I don’t mean to sound like I’m complaining.  I’m actually very happy!  Classes are going pretty well, I LOVE my social life, my art is at a very good point right now, I have beaten a new video game (woo!), all is right with the world.  :)

Oh, last thing.  I came up with a new story idea!  Actually, lots of story stuff has occured.  I actually went back to Miles 7 for a little bit.  I started fixing up issues with character appearances.  I recently went back and changed how Lakai, Tek, and yellow half-demons in general look, which means I had a lot of editing to do.  On top of that, I had to revisit the first chapter and make it less stupid.  Why in the world did I think it was a good idea to put in two full paragraphs describing Lakai’s CLOTHING?  No.  Especially not now that I’ve somewhat changed her clothing style.  And hair.  And eye color.  It’s much more well-written now.  I also had to make sure my terms were consistent, as well as my captialization.  Councilmen/councilman was my worst word inconsistency.  I think I was somewhat motivated to fix it up due to Finley starting to read it.  God, no one has read that story in forever.

Anyway, new story idea!  I saw Casino Royale, which kind of got me on a card suit kick.  I decided I was going to do some kind of story involving the suits.  I thought I would do a fantasy story, perhaps create four characters who represent each suit.  Then I got a much better idea.  The story features Sarah Morlen and Jim Veras, my Silent Hill (originally) characters whose interactions are actually REALLY well designed.  I decided I needed to use them in a story.  On top of that, I tied in Keia Samson and Jacob Thelm (who is basically a new character whose personality is basically the same as the made-up personality I used to give Reno in our FF7 fanstory).  I had originally planned to have them in the same universe as Sarah and Jim, so it worked out rather well.  The plot is a crazy combination of Casino Royale, Tomb Raider, and National Treasure.  I’ll be brief, but they each represent a card suit (Keia is Queen of Hearts, Jake is King of Diamonds, Sarah is Queen of Clubs, Jim is King of Spades) and they have personality flaws and bad luck based on their suits.  And there’s this crazy artifact that can only be accessed by these four people.  Aaaand there are evil people and good people who want to find it.  That’s the gist of it, and I think it’s gonna be a really good one.  It takes place in modern times, and it’s more gritty than my other two stories, I suppose.  I’m excited!

Well, that’s all for now.  I think I good, solid 1500+ words is fine for today.  I shall catch y’all on the flipside, as it were.

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The Onset of Guilt

December 7, 2008

I am feeling the squeeze of my conscience this afternoon.

A few days ago, I offered to learn an a piece to accompany a friend of mine for his jury for Trombone.  I really did think I could learn it–it’s in C major, the first and last parts are SLOW, and the middle didn’t look too bad.  So I started working on it today and I realized it’s quite a bit more difficult that I anticipated.  The middle part is the real kicker; it is about double the speed of the other two sections, and while that’s not very fast, it’s complicated because of an unusual melody and very strange chords with lots of sharps and flats.  It also has a few funky rhythms in it.  I feel awful about this, because while I might have been able to learn it in a few weeks, I’m not entirely sure I can in one week, let alone the week before finals in which I have to write the final 8 pages of a 15 page paper on Alchemy, finish a take-home test, write a speech, and finish a Flash animation.  This is bad stuff.  And now I’m not sure he’ll be able to find an accompanist very easily.  His original one flaked on him or something, and the other two people in his hall that could learn it ALSO have juries to get ready for, as well as other finals.

I wish I could find him an accompanist so he wouldn’t have to worry about this.  Had he a backup, I wouldn’t feel nearly as bad.  However, this is for one of his FINALS, and I don’t want to have contributed to issues with such a massively important occasion.  Perhaps I should never have agreed to do this.  I should really think things through first.  But now I feel obliged to help him out in SOME way…

Currently, David is putting the song on Sibelius for listening purposes, as there is virtually no recording of this song anywhere.  Perhaps hearing it will make it easier to learn?  I hope my friend can find someone in time…or that hearing the song will help me play it…