Have I Mentioned How I Suck at Titles?

J’ai eu un bon jour aujourd’hui!  Je suis allé au cinema avec “ze boy” et nous avons regardé Enchanted.  C’est un bon film et tres adorable.  Mais le mot n’est pas correct…comment dit-on “cute” en francais?  Bof.  Et aprés le film, nous sommes allé chez moi et nous avons joué L’etrange Noel de Monsieur Jack (“Oogie’s Revenge”).  C’est TRES mal.  Main nous nous avons amusés.  Il est resté au ma maison jusqu’a 5h-ish.  Ensuite, je s’ai conduit au chez soi.

Apres le diner, ma famille ont mis les ornements sur le sapin de Noel.  Nos sapin de Noel  est nouveau cette année et c’est tres beau.  ♥

Aussi; j’ai gagné la série d’élimination pour Dark Kingdom!  Je vais battre Serain dans la série prochaine.  J’espere je vais avoir le temps pour finir mes pages d’illustré.

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Mon francais est horrible.  XD

HAPPY DAY

What else can I say, really?

He likes me!

/junior high phraseology

Really, today was just wonderful.  I found out he likes me (and I’m so grateful to the friend who asked him…I REALLY owe her, no matter what she says), I drew a pretty nice picture (I think it’s my best drawing from that class), I got a copy of our performance of Emma on tape (yay!), and I hung out with friends this evening!  Just a wonderful day.

Oh.  And…I MAY have won Dark Kingdom by default?  It’s past the deadline and I’m the only one who’s uploaded the entry for this round.  o_o  That would be a little strange, I wonder what will happen now.

Tomorrow is the first day of Thanksgiving break!  I will probably sleep.  Oh, and do homework.  Haha.  I have to remember to call Annie, we’re planning on getting together tomorrow to write our parody of “‘Twas the Night Before Christmas” (that’s not the actual title, but that’s the first line anyway).  It will be GLORIOUS!

Sure.

Man, I forgot what it was like to really have a crush on a guy.  It’s frustrating.  Especially when you don’t know what they’re thinking.

At least I got to sit really close to and talk a lot with Boy 2 today after school.  Because I’m a gigantic nerd and went back to school to talk with people after school.  XD

Nothing new right now.  I am working on Dark Kingdom–I wrote the dialogue, but it’s HORRIBLE and OUT OF CHARACTER and an ATROCITY, really.  I hate it a lot.  If I lose this round, I’m attributing it to the dialogue.  But I don’t really have time to fix it, so…I’m just using the dialogue I wrote today.

I love Final Fantasy music.  *wibble*

Questionable

Why do girls never make guys who look like GUYS?  Like, I’m totally cool with manga-style ambiguity in bishounen.  But can’t we have guys with short hair?  Or long-haired guys who look like MEN?

Kinda hypocritical of me–I have at least three guys with long hair (Drew, Chaelar, and Taleran).  But at least they have manly faces.  They look like MEN.  They aren’t girls with boy’s names and testosterone.

Anyway.  Spur of the moment.  I’m not really ranting, just wondering.  *shrug*

Boy news: I think Boy 2 is winning right now in my…um…heart?  That sounds melodramatic.  My affections.  Sure.  I’ve just spent a lot more time with him lately, and I think it’s a fair sign when he’s on my mind all the time…and I went through all his Facebok pictures (which would be creepier if he had more pictures, but he really has very few pictures in comparison to many of my friends).  Er, yeah…  I only hope Boy 1 and I can just be friends…and that I didn’t encourage him too much before this.  I worry SO much about this issue…  *wring hands*

OH GOD DARK KINGDOM IS DUE IN TWO DAYS.  I scrambled to finish the colors today.  I still have dialogue left…I think I can do that in one day.  I WILL get this in on time.  I spent too much time on the colors to forfeit with a late entry.  I’ll go WITHOUT words, if I have to do so!

School again tomorrow.  I have but two days of school this week and I am truly thrilled!  Unfortunately, I have my college art class.  I had secretly hoped that they got out by Tuesday for break.  ^^;  I also will have CRUDDY WEIGHTLIFTING IN GYM CLASS.  I will NOT do that.  I refuse.  I will walk, I will do whatever.  I will just not lift weights in gym class.

And I’m late to bed again.  I’m off.

Posting for Posting’s Sake

Well, I am.  I’m trying to post as often as possible.  Unfortunately, I can’t write much tonight; I have to finish my 50-words-or-less achievement list thing for the SCAD scholarship application AND finish the flats on page 2 of my Dark Kingdom entry.  Just page 2.  Because it took me forever to do all of the stained glass windows.  Grump.Anyway.  Nothing new, really.  I asked my friend about my boy issue, and she advised me to just let it play out.  To quote her in her role in the play, “and so I am!”  That’s stress-free enough for me, I think.  I still hate the feeling of liking two guys at once, though…it makes me feel guilty or something.  >_>

I am off.  More tomorrow, I should hope.  But perhaps not!  I have lots of art to do this week.  XD

Thes Fest recap STILL later.  It’s long and silly and will take the right touch to tell the story correctly.

Okay.

Better now.  Still conflicted, but…better now.  I need a second opinion on this matter (other than my best friend, who was EXTREMELY helpful, yay, but also does not know ze people persnoally…so yes, I’m covering my bases?).

Annnyway.  Yesterday was Clavinova Festival.  Second place = sadface, but apparently the judge had such a close call with it that she insisted I play at the recital (first time ever–usually only the first place winners get to perform their pieces, but this year I got to do so, as well).  So that was good.  It hit me a little harder than usual because this was my absolute favorite of all the songs I’ve arranged for Clavinova (and I personally thought it was the best of them, too).  Oh well.  It’s over now!

Dark Kingdom is progressing!  I really should have worked on it more today…but I kinda got on the phone and couldn’t concentrate.  At least I designed the bottom windows and got the flats done on Jo for the first page.  1 out of 10, woo!

School begins anew tomorrow.  Le sigh.  At least everyone will be back from NCYC.  And I need to finish my project with Brian and Danielle HARDCORE!  We don’t actually know what we’re doing yet, and I’m pretty sure it’s due either Tuesday or Wednesday.  I’ll pitch my drawing idea to them (idea is thus: I draw some amusing summaries of the happenings in our Decameron story and…we make it into a Powerpoint or something).  lawl, I say.

Lastly, I really hope we get to pick our own songs for musical auditions (and also that we sing them alone in a room with our judges).  I totally have a song (I’m pretty sure people sang it last year BUT I DON’T CARE)–it’s Home from Beauty and the Beast.  I feel extremely confident when I sing it, so…that’s good.  I don’t really care that it doesn’t fit the part I want AT ALL (Mary Magdalene in Godspell much?).  I can sing it.  I’ll do a monologue that caters to the part instead.  XD

…But father…I just want to…SING–
NO NO SINGING

Oh right, Thes Fest recap later.  Now I have to go to bed!

Boys Are Frustrating

No, really.  I know it’s a well-known fact.  It’s just striking me again.

Just when I decide that one of the boys I like(d?) was just being goofy and not serious (and therefore I should go after the other boy, who seems more sincere), I find that I’m not really sure any more.  We’ll call ze boy mentioned lately Boy 1 and boy I thought I was over Boy 2.  For simplicity’s sake.

Well, Boy 2 is a gigantic flirt and really, I still can’t entirely sure if he’s serious or not.  I mean, the kid is WELL known among all the theatre girls for being a huge (but loveable and silly) smarmadon.  And I spent all of Thespian Festival with him (he was my Thes Fest buddy, har), which was fun (we acted out Kingdom Hearts, it was hilarious).  We sat next to each other in all three of the stage shows.  He stole my hat a lot.  He kept tickling my knees.  And he grabbed my hands a lot during Beauty and the Beast, but that was because it was so “magical”.  He did the yawn-put-arm-around thing more than once, but I could tell he was kidding because he’d look astonished and back off when I looked at him skeptically (he does that a lot, actually).  That, or he’d have his other arm around his friend Josh.  XD

HOWEVER, during the end of the last show, he just kind put his arm on the back of my chair.  He didn’t actually touch me at all.  But he just put his arm there.  And I was only slightly weirded out because it was so unlike him.  He’s honest-to-God NEVER serious about anything.

AND SWEAR TO GOD, I was over him.  I was like, “Man, it’s Boy 2.  He’s like that to EVERY girl.”  And it’s not like I mind, it’s fun to flirt when you’re kidding (also when you’re not, but when you know you’re both kidding, it takes the serious meaning out of it).

BUT WHAT IF I’M LEADING HIM ON.  My mom is convinced I’m not, but it makes me nervous.  Especially because I could easily like Boy 2.  He’s very sweet.  Though the whole flirting thing might be a little too unnerving for me.  But really, he’s super fun to hang out with (if a little loud and obnoxious), and I rarely get as many hugs, arm links, and hand holding with any other guy than I do with Boy 2.  BUT, I also decided I didn’t like him a little while back and was pursuing Boy 1!  And I can’t just drop him because he used to like me and I would feel like I encouraged him again and then just FORGOT ABOUT HIM.  I would feel like a total witch!  He, too, is a crazy sweet boy.  I mean, he does all these adorably kinda awkward but terribly kind things.

I really don’t know what to do about this.  Both of them are really, really sweet boys.  Boy 2 is a huge flirt and I don’t even know if he’s serious (nor can I really determine whether he’s serious or not because no one things he is)  or if we’re just frinds who, uh, flirt a lot with no meaning to it except platonic friendship (which would be fine with me, unless it made things awkward with someone else or something).  And Boy 1 is really sweet, but I can’t read him at all anymore and WHO KNOWS, he might not like me, either.

I keep hoping I’ll definitively find out one likes me WHILE the other one likes someone other than me.  And everyone stays friends, that’d be nice, too.  But I can’t find these things out.  I’m terrified that either both like him or NEITHER like me.  I hate liking two guys at once.  I feel like I’m playing them both for suckers.  And I would NEVER EVER want to hurt a friend of mine.  These two are two of my best guy friends.

I’ll probably find out that neither likes me and I’m just totally full of myself.  Le sigh.  I don’t know what to do about this.

…In the meantime, I’m glad I’m not going out with my ex anymore.  We’re good friends, but…I think he’d drive me too insane.  All for the best.  XD

Life is good right now.  A little smashed together (and obviously full of boy troubles), but good.   ^^

HELL HATH NO FURY

What the HELL.  I normally wouldn’t swear, but in this instance I have no other choice.

Just when I was complimenting our show on how the drama just disappeared on opening night, someone rushes in and STAMPS ALL OVER MY COMPLIMENT.

I got a call from my techie friend (she runs curtain) who also does my hair and make-up for the show (and has for two and a half years now) and she said she got a call from our TD.  Apparently she was fired from the show.

Now I’ve been relatively up to date on the techie drama.  Apparently, a good friend of mine (who is normally our stage manager) let my ex-bo (our techie-diva-nazi–but usually in a good way) be stage manager for this show, and according to she and my curtain friend the power has allegedly gone to his head and he thinks he has more power than he did before (which he doesn’t).  This is coming from my good ex-stage manager friend.

I’ve also heard that he was shirking responsibilities in the booth while talking on the headsets with our TD.  We are NOT supposed to talk on headsets, they are strictly for cues, rehearsal or no.

Now I have nothing against our TD.  I actually get along with her very well.  And, for that matter, I get along really well with my ex, too (better than when we dated, actually).  But I’m also on excellent terms with my curtain friend–she’s stuck with me through all of my hair/make-up problems and we rant backstage when we’re upset.  I love her dearly.

I’m trying to see both sides of the stories.  Admittedly, my curtain friend is a free spirit.  She knows what she’s doing and knows her cues, so she can be snippy with our TD (who she pretty much hates and greatly disapproves of) and my ex (diva power tripping style).  The relationship between the booth techies and curtain friend has been extremely volatile during this show.  Curtain friend really irked the TD when she directly refused to lower the curtain during a run (it was the run where our TD was acting in place of our director) because she didn’t feel like the run was being taken seriously.  She’s told me our director has let her not do curtain sometimes because it’s “kinda a pain” and she knows what she’s doing.  According to my ex, she’s been really disrespectful of TD and ex throughout the run of the show and she pushed it too far when she sent a rude text back to my ex when he told her to wear ALL BLACK tomorrow (she usually wears jeans or something because she never leaves the curtain area).  So the TD fired her.

In curtain friend’s defense, she really does know what she’s doing.  From my standpoint, she doesn’t do anything wrong, she knows her cues, and really doesn’t leave the backstage wings.  She may be snippy, but she’s good at what she does.  And her antics have never caused problems before.

Curtain friend says she is on good terms with our director and threatens to tell her about our TD’s irresponsible swear-fests during the techie meetings (f-bombs shouted at Freshmen techies) if she’s called out when she comes to rehearsal anyway.  When she called me, she told me that she would be showing up anyway, regardless of being fired, because it’s unfair of our TD to fire her not only with one show left but without talking to our director.

On the other hand, my ex (who called me shortly after curtain friend did) says he and TD have been talking with the director about curtain friend all week.  I told him it was unfair of TD to not ask director first, but he fired back that she knows about curtain friend already.

I can’t really express how furious I was on the phone.  I just got off the phone with curtain friend, who was extremely angry but very nonchalant (“This is completely ridiculous, right?  Anyway, I’ll see you at 5:30 tomorrow.”), when I get a text from my ex telling me I need a new hair person.  I responded with “No, I don’t.”  So he called me back and I was literally struck speechless with anger.  I don’t think I’ve EVER been that angry.

Curtain friend may cause problems, but for one, it’s COMPLETELY unfair to fire her with one show left.  Second, she KNOWS WHAT SHE’S DOING.  She’s quiet backstage, she does her job, and in terms of practicality, she shouldn’t be fired at all because she’s doing what she’s supposed to do.

All I know is that I’m going to kill my ex if he mentions it again.  Had he been talking to me in person, I’m not really sure what I would have done to him.  I want to talk to our director TERRIBLY and find out what she thinks about this whole issue.  Curtain girl is one of my best friends.  I’m not going to stand by and watch her get fired from theatre.

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In other news, I had an otherwise excellent night (that sorta dampened the whole thing, but I digress).  The run was AWESOME, and the crowd was really big!  And they laughed at the jokes, huzzah!  PLUS my stuffy nose cleared up rather miraculously and my throat survived the show!  And then after the show I got lots of hugs and flowers–and ze boy came and sat by me on the stage during the post-show greetings and whathaveyou.  Plus he gave me a rose with a really hilarious note (hilarious because of how little it said, awww…<3 ).  So had this issue with curtain friend not happened, it probably would have been a perfect night.